First thoughts thought!

Ever since i was a freshman in high school everyone told me it was important to write my thoughts down into a journal and so... for the past four years of my life i have been writing everything from my worries, praises, anger, prayers, and grocery lists in my little black moleskin. Lately i have been wanting to share them with the world! Granted... i have come to realize that my blog may only be seen by my dear children in the future (Lord willing...) in order for me to say, "Hey look! I was a cool hipster who did the whole blogging thing!" So... i have decided to write them down... in a blog... online. Here are my thoughts.
Misconceptions about Bible School:
It's my freshman year at Moody Bible Institute and i have come to realize that many of the ideas i had about coming here have proved to be untrue. At first i was really disappointed with some of these but as time goes on (6 weeks... i know), those disappointments are what have made me grow. Part of me knew that i had set a high standard for the adventure i was about to embark on but i still had unattainably high expectations for the experience and sweet people i live with. Here are a few of my wonderful disappointments:
1. Bible students don't sin: I know... what was i thinking. I was coming here expecting people to have things figured out and know what's going on. Turns out.. everyone here is just as messed up as me! weird. AAAAnd so... i have discovered that Bible students sin just like me aaand sometimes this causes conflict that needs to be solved in loving very awkward talks.
2. Bible school is easy: NOPE! My professors are genius and they expect genius. One of my syllabi for a paper i have to write actually says, "Big idea is profound". I'm sorry but... I don't think i have ever had a profound thought in my life and you expect me to have one every week? geez... PLUS i read like four hour a night...
3. Bible students know everything about the Bible: One of my house mates grew up in a very nonchristian home. Sometimes she asks me about Bible stories that i learned in Sunday school when i was five... i find her refreshing. She doesn't act like she knows everything and she asks questions when she doesn't! Her honesty is nice. I like her :) Im beginning to realize that it's okay to be lost sometimes and have no idea whats going on!
4. Moody Bridal Institute: THAT is actually true... it's like a mad dash for husbands and wives out here.
5. It's easy to feel close to God at Bible school: Even though half of my work and reading is spent studying the Bible, i SO easily lose track of my quiet time with Jesus and i find that i have gone a week without actually sitting down, reading the Bible, NOT writing a paper on it, and then praying. I need accountability... working on that one with my house mates.
6. Bible students get along with their house mates because they love Jesus: Conflict. What do you do when people put peanut buttery/ syrupy pancake dishes on the counter and don't clean up? I don't know. Our house is still working on the chore list and still trying to figure out what pushes other people's buttons, how do we confront one another about things that bother us so we don't grow bitter, and who keeps leaving their socks on the table.

When i came out here i think i knew deep down in my heart that all of these things were untrue but it's so hard not to build up ideas about school and even start to make it an idol. As I'm going through this weird experience I can't believe how much God is teaching me! Strange how a lot of this is OUTSIDE of Dr. McMath's OT Survey class and mostly in Walmart when i can't stand how slow that guy from the house next door is shopping and i just want to go home... (McMAth is a genius though)

Just some thoughts being thought...